People who don’t know me very well always seem to be surprised if I tell them about my struggles with depression and anxiety.  ”But you come across as so normal!”.  Well yeah, it’s pretty easy for me to pretend to be absolutely fine for a couple of hours, and I’m grateful for it, because some people don’t even have that luxury.  I can’t keep it up forever though, and that’s what is on my mind at the moment.

I was brave, and I applied for a job this week.  Only the third time I’ve ever done it, and I couldn’t have done it without help and support from certain people (thank you, if you are reading this).  For most people this is the difficult part - the CV and then the interview…Having to make a good impression, come across as professional and likeable and competent.  I find it the easy part.  I know how to make a good first impression.  I dread actually getting the job, because then I have to keep it up and live up to that front I first put forward.

People say you fake it till you make it, but what happens if it never comes?